Kyle Cajucom-Uy
Hanging Coffins
Sagada, Mountain Province
dot the cliff face like pastel tumors
and the ginger nubs you carry
to ward them off. Soon, your body will join the cluster,
suspended between rafflesia and flying shrikes.
You build your coffin small and refuse
to paint—it will stay the green brown of bark
in like decay,
though I protest. Even now, I pray
novenas for healing and skin
pigs when the friars turn
in, my hands fluent where words fail.
Yeast-dusted bottle bottoms. Chicken livers
laid out. The ancient rituals sprout native
from my fingers—no spirits
will mar your soul. In time, I will
break
your bones, fold you fetal
to fit your grave. I will climb mountains and nail wood
into stone, wondering which god you pissed off,
which gods I missed. In time,
I will join you, and our corpses will fall
as they rose, nurturing fungi
and the ginger I forage for. Their yellow stains
my fingers
and yours as you tuck them away, protesting
the smell. I claim the space beside you. Dusk comes
and, through the canopy, glints off two chisels
shaping a green-brown coffin
now smeared with yellow streaks.
Sharing “You are my Sunshine” with my Dying Dog
for Zephyr
after Mark Leidner and Frank O’Hara
My voice kept cracking, but you didn’t say anything
because you were a dog
wedged beneath our patio bench, frozen
by a storm. There was no conceit—I just hoped
to calm your nerves, make your tail wag
like the song once did and coax you to the hearth inside,
but your glance away after the third line brought me back
to the world where I can’t have everything I want.
This was before my date with grief
when your walks were routine
but shorter, and my nights were hyphenated
by your absence in my arms.
So I knelt, my voice whispering
against the crackling rain as I reached
to pet what parts of you I could,
wondering why I so viscerally cared
to sing the song through ‘til the second
line of the last chorus when your tail emerged from the shelter
of your belly and wagged for the briefest moment,
which may have been chance, but still made me believe
in art and its fulfilment, especially in this world
where I can’t hold a tune, hold a hearth
or hold a dog forever.
Caju is a Filipino-Chinese poet from Pasig City, Philippines. Currently residing in Liverpool, United Kingdom, he works as a mental health practitioner, exploring loss through both academic and creative writing while helping others come to terms with their own. His work is published in the Philippine Collegian, Aster Lit, HaluHalo Journal, and elsewhere. You can find more of his work on Instagram: @wordsbycaju.
Artwork: “Corvid Call” by Daniel Lurie
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