Kyle Cajucom-Uy

Hanging Coffins

Sagada, Mountain Province

Hanging Coffins

dot the cliff face like pastel tumors

and the ginger nubs you carry

to ward them off. Soon, your body will join the cluster,

suspended between rafflesia and flying shrikes.

You build your coffin small and refuse

to paint—it will stay the green brown of bark

in like decay,

           though I protest. Even now, I pray

novenas for healing and skin

pigs when the friars turn

in, my hands fluent where words fail. 

Yeast-dusted bottle bottoms. Chicken livers 

laid out. The ancient rituals sprout native 

from my fingers—no spirits

will mar your soul. In time, I will

       break

your bones, fold you fetal

to fit your grave. I will climb mountains and nail wood

into stone, wondering which god you pissed off, 

which gods I missed. In time, 

I will join you, and our corpses will fall

as they rose, nurturing fungi 

and the ginger I forage for. Their yellow stains 

my fingers

       and yours as you tuck them away, protesting

the smell. I claim the space beside you. Dusk comes

and, through the canopy, glints off two chisels 

shaping a green-brown coffin 

now smeared with yellow streaks.

Sharing “You are my Sunshine” with my Dying Dog

for Zephyr

after Mark Leidner and Frank O’Hara

Sharing "You are my Sunshine" with my Dying Dog

My voice kept cracking, but you didn’t say anything

because you were a dog 

wedged beneath our patio bench, frozen

by a storm. There was no conceit—I just hoped

to calm your nerves, make your tail wag

like the song once did and coax you to the hearth inside, 

but your glance away after the third line brought me back 

to the world where I can’t have everything I want.

This was before my date with grief

when your walks were routine

but shorter, and my nights were hyphenated

by your absence in my arms.

So I knelt, my voice whispering

against the crackling rain as I reached 

to pet what parts of you I could, 

wondering why I so viscerally cared 

to sing the song through ‘til the second

line of the last chorus when your tail emerged from the shelter

of your belly and wagged for the briefest moment,

which may have been chance, but still made me believe

in art and its fulfilment, especially in this world

where I can’t hold a tune, hold a hearth

or hold a dog forever.

Caju is a Filipino-Chinese poet from Pasig City, Philippines. Currently residing in Liverpool, United Kingdom, he works as a mental health practitioner, exploring loss through both academic and creative writing while helping others come to terms with their own. His work is published in the Philippine Collegian, Aster Lit, HaluHalo Journal, and elsewhere. You can find more of his work on Instagram: @wordsbycaju.

Artwork: “Corvid Call” by Daniel Lurie

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